Hi everyone,
I am stuck in the office currently obviously... Shhhh. Dont tell my boss I am blogging during office hour ok? Hahaha.. I cannot take it anymore. I HAVE TO BLOG! Do u guys believe in love? Love can be so strong that two people from two different kinda world willing to sacrifice everything just to be with each other. I need to admit this, me and my boyfriend argue a lot... like A LOT! Sometimes we do not even know why we argue.... At some point, we just give up and just tell each other why argue when we know after arguing, we will get back together,,,
However, I reckon that if both people love each other so much, then should not kira so much right (means dont be so calculative) Since young, my dad wants me to be happy. As long as I am happy then he is happy, when I cry, he will be very worried and give me extra tender loving care. But my baby is a person who emphasize on what you do or what you did. He will not feel anything if both of us argue and then I cry. If I cry because I am stress or miss him a lot, then he will show me that he loves me and always be there for me. But if I cry because we have conflict in thinking, when i do not meet his expectation or when I was unreasonable, then he will not give a damn. SIGHHHHH.
He loves me a lot, but is this even healthy? Why does he hold his principle and point of view so strongly? What benefits will he get? I will never understand this....Maybe my brother is right.... The way everyone was brought up is different. My dad taught the boys in the family that girls should be pampered and it is okay for girls to be unreasonable sometimes. Guys sometimes just have to suck it up for being guys... But, his dad taught him not to be stupid and used by girls. that was planted in his brain since he was young.
I love him because he is always a gentleman, open the door for me, take care of me when I am sick, prioritize me, let me make decision on what to eat and where to go, make sure I eat well and sleep well, make sure I am safe all the time, take care of my family (even when we are arguing), make sure I stand on the right side of the road when the cars are coming from the left, make me feel safe and secure all the time, spoil me reasonably, and also give me full attention most of the time. <3 I love travelling with him because I get to experience how is it like if the world left me and him. *especially our Taipei trip*
If we go to a world where no one knows me and we have to depend on each other to survive, then we are so strong that I feel like marrying him anytime. But when there are external factors, then it is impossible for us to past life like normal couples. I hate arguing with him, its like I love him so much yet arguing over small things. This is the issue again, when I think the matter is small, he might think the opposite way, he might think that the issue is very big....... that is when the argument came out again. *never ending arguments and conflicts*
Baby, if you are reading this. I hope that you understand some of the things. Not forcing you to understand but then hopefully can stand on my side and hear what I am thinking on this side. : --
I love you baby, I really do. But I am brought up in a different way and I admit my parents love me a lot (ur term: spoiled me). To me, I think it is because they love me a lot. I appreciate every tiny things you have done to me, from covering my head with ur palm when its raining to coming to KL and make sure I eat when I am broke at the end of the month. You really taught me a lot of things, like never look for short term happiness when I have my long term and stable happiness. No happiness is forever, we have bittersweet life.... Without the bitter, you will not appreciate the sweet part right? I know you have done a lot of things behind my back but never claim credits from me, but I appreciate everything, really. I hope that you can appreciate me as well, I know you expect a lot from me, but I am climbing up from zero and hope that you understand that, at least I am willing to learn and change right? Just a tiny tips: you cannot handle me the hard way(although you always handle me with hard way), I am a sucker for soft and gentle advice, especially advising me when you are hugging me or when you are cuddling with me. I know you dont owe me and handle me with this way. But it works. I have changed so much for us, hope you try another way of handling me? Sighhh*. I love you bie.
Suddenly very emo after typing out this post.... Till then..
xx,
Sharmaine
